sigh

Today.. the first day of february 2010.. Another glorious lost for me, almost all account had been wiped out by unmerciful market movement, the biggest lost i had so far.. i started to wonder whether i really fit to this world *sigh

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHH

Should i give up? Maybe.. I guess i failed to overcome the barrier to the next level, i want to cry, i want to mad, i want to laugh, my mind twisted, i can not think straight.. I really want to stop this misery, the pain too unbearable..
Should i start again? Maybe.. I dunno, maybe i will just end up with the same mistake at the future..
What should i do damn it................................